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my Papa and my Father

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Papa... Christmas is around the corner and This is the first time I’m scared of Christmas This is the first time I feel like to skip the most wonderful month of the year This is the first time Christmas struggle me in my mind and my heart All of these years... I never fail to  expecting-enjoy-rejoicing in Christmas for many reasons. Last year was great! around this time I was on my way to home...after so many years spending Christmas in other places...other than my home-my hometown...my heart filled and full of joy. This year... every hope every joy every fun every Christmas thing ...seems to fade away ...looks dim in my sight ...sound weird in my ears I don't know...I'm scared to know...how Christmas would be?  --------------- That's because of you are no longer with us  --------------- I'm struggling within me I'm fighting against me --------------- I don't want this suffering to o