TR2C HoMe

setelah anter Calvin dan Rebecca sekolah...aku jalan ke pasar sambil ngobrol ama teman... dari tempat kita berdiri teman ngobrol saya terkejut...ada cewek yang tidur geletakan ditangga...orang" yang lewat tangga itu terkejut, muka penuh ketakutan dan berlalu dengan cepat...ada yang gak beres nih! banyakan case di spore...klo gak mati ya mabok! well...at least somebody have to do something! kita dekati pelan...tapi gak bisa liat dari bawah apa orang ini mati apa gak...pas ada orang India...laki tinggi besar lewat dia juga ikut perhatiin...karna cowok itu ada aku jadi berani naik ke lantai 2... pikirku: "well klo ada apa" nih cowok bisa bantu..." aku naik duluan keatas... posisi cewek itu . geletakan ditangga . mukanya pucat . mulut kebuka . tapi gak tercium bau alkohol sereeeem >.< aku perhatikan...ternyata masih bernapas *Hhhhh legaaaa*... tapi bingung...trus diapain yah?! masak dibiarin geletakan gitu?! orang India yang ikut keatas

The next morning...after sending Calvin to school ...... my mind keep telling me You have to go to school early in the morning...so Ms. Buckland *the principle* aware the situation before they start practicing for the concert...She is a wise woman...for sure she will do something ...... my heart says NO! go there late... many things came up in the house and i use it as an excuse go to there late my mind is aware i'm doing something wrong by go there late! my heart is says its OK...God is on something! my mind telling me... "your son is struggle right now!!! dealing with the things that makes him scare...you better go there faster...HURRY UP!!!...something bad might be happen and Calvin will refuse to go up to the stage on the concert day!!!" my mind is troubling me with all the consequences for me being late! then i pray "God take authority on me...lead my way!" the more my mind troubling me...the more i postponed my departure! this time

2 days ago... late afternoon...i was out from the house to send my friend to hospital...and back home early in the evening... Calvin: "Mommy can you see something different in me since i came back from school today? Me: "Yes Calv...what's wrong?" Calvin: "something scary happen in the school Mommy...and...it makes me scare" ......... pull the chair close to him Me: "u wanna talk about it?" Calvin: "NO Mommy! it was too scary i CAN'T tell you!" ......... try to figure it out: how to make him 'talk' Me: "somebody scold you at school?" Calvin: "NO" Me: "somebody hit you?" Calvin: "NO" Me: "then what is the scary thing?" Calvin: "NO Mommy! i can't tell you" ......... my alarm ON! ......... OK, its time to take it seriously! ......... i bring him to the bed room and close the door Me: "Calvin if you share with me...maybe i can h