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65 is not too young 65 is not that old either many people came to me and expressed their condolences, support and prayer...it is my blessing to have them all! personally... I feel uneasy... every time i heard comments like this... "oh he is still young" "he is too young!" "only 65?!" well...no hard feeling towards the people (commentators) but...evil used those comments as an instrument to create chaotic in me ------------------------------------------- here is the chaos... according to me... + 65 is good enough + 65 is long enough + 65 is only 5 years discount (from what the Bible says about a man's life span) but then those comments ...create question my mind - is it too young? - is it short? ...then my mind started wondering - how i wish he live at least another 5 years - how i wish he have a long life ------------------------------------------- positive  ➕  against negative  ➖ good thinking  😊  against wond

around 1 hr after we received "the news"... Torkis was busy booked the air ticket and i was busy packing while Calvin accompanied Rebecca coz she was still crying.. suddenly... we heard Rebecca cried out loud and Calvin ran to us saying this "mommy...you better check on Rebecca...something strange with her " we all ran to the bedroom... then she told us this... "Mommy...first time i close my eyes...it was nothing...only crying...but when i close my eyes for the second time... ------------------------ i saw Jesus and Opa walk away from me... I saw Jesus and Opa climb up the stairs to heaven ------------------------ she cried out loud coz in her mind... her grandpa is leaving her ------------------------ but my mind got it differently It was an answered prayer! --------- let me take you back to many years ago my father was born as christian we are all christian through generations my father was a regular attendance of Sunday

all these years... i don't like it i feel that is useless it creates inner vows in me... i will only do eulogy after i express... . my own "eulogy" . my heart content . my gratitude . my apologies to my parents! privately! very personal! i want them to feel how special and precious they are in my life ...while they are still alive ...while they can enjoy the wonderful feeling being appreciated by me ...while we can share the most intimate love and bonding my heart "alert" me about my personal eulogy since early this year when my father's condition dropped we went back to be with him in the middle of March with the scenario and all the words in my mind...but...the atmosphere of sharing was not there... i came back home with a heavy heart... why didn't i do that? do i have enough courage to do that? should i do that? i don't have an answer for all those wondering questions only weeks after that i realize... i