T.I.M.E

65 is not too young
65 is not that old either

many people came to me and expressed their condolences, support and prayer...it is my blessing to have them all!

personally...
I feel uneasy...
every time i heard comments like this...

"oh he is still young"
"he is too young!"
"only 65?!"

well...no hard feeling towards the people (commentators)
but...evil used those comments as an instrument to create chaotic in me

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here is the chaos...

according to me...
+ 65 is good enough
+ 65 is long enough
+ 65 is only 5 years discount
(from what the Bible says about a man's life span)

but then those comments
...create question my mind
- is it too young?
- is it short?

...then my mind started wondering
- how i wish he live at least another 5 years
- how i wish he have a long life
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positive ➕ against negative ➖
good thinking 😊 against wondering mind 😟

bing 👊 and 💪🏼 bang me quite some times
the more i think about it
the more i'm struggle inside

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the ultimate fight actually between me and God!

Why did You take him so quickly?
Why don't You extend his life?

You have all the control over everything on earth and in heaven
You have the magic called miracle

Why didn't You heal him?

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The last 3 years...
I learn so much about...
+ God's sovereignty
+ gospel...
+deeper truth


at Agape Baptist Church

This year alone i learn about
+ God's sovereignty
+ God rules over the earth and heaven
in Revelation
at Bible Study Fellowship (BSF)

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the truth that i received rang the alarm inside me

THIS IS BAD!
THIS IS EVIL!

YOU ARE QUESTIONING GOD'S SOVEREIGNTY!
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i have 2 options!

First...
SATISFY MY HEART AND MIND WITH THOSE QUESTIONS
...by crying-grieving-mourning
...by asking God with many WHY(s)
...by feel pity over the fact! over my life!

Second...
HUMBLE MYSELF TO THE LORD
SUBMIT TO HIS SOVEREIGNTY

...only Jesus can satisfy my mind with the truth!
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all evil's work through this circumstances must be put to a FULL STOP
or it will SHUT my FAITH to GOD!
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i'm serious with this
i won't let this thing comes between me and my precious Jesus

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I CHOOSE THE SECOND OPTION!!!

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i humble myself before the Lord asking for His mercy and grace
I submit myself to God's sovereignty over this circumstances

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ONLY GOD and GOD ALONE can SATISFY my HEART and MIND with the TRUTH

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God have His way to answer me!

it is a very simple yet super strong answer
that put all the chaotic things in my life in the full stop



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JOB 14:
A person’s days are determined;
you have decreed the number of his months
and have set limits he cannot exceed.
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it is not too short or too long
it is not too young or too old


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what matter the most is
ETERNAL LIFE WITH JESUS IN HEAVEN
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at last...

with a joyful heart...

I CELEBRATE GOD'S GRACE OVER LIFE!