Jesus or His blessing?

Lately...

some questions play in my mind...

what satisfy me in life?


my family?
spending time with my husband and kids are precious to me...
never fail to pray quietly...Thank you God for the family i have
They are my love and my life

 my big family?
my parents and my siblings...my in laws...my niece...
having them...do something for them...see them happy just makes my heart happy

my dream work?
i've been a housewife for 9 years...
i've been devoted my life to my husband and the kids...

after 9 years...
God open the way for me and now i'm doing my dream work since i was a kid : teaching
the excitement reaching highest level

my ministries?
seeing people been touched by God's love
turn they heart to Jesus
llife changing
makes me wanting to be Jesus's partner even more

my overseas holiday?
well everyone knows
. how happy when you go overseas for holiday
. how thrilled my heart when we go the new place
feels like 'butterfly in my tummy'!

my shopping time?
i never fail to enjoy my shopping time even though only 'window shopping' *woman!*
everytime i feel out of 'fuel'...just spend some times for shopping and all energy that i need will pump back to me and i feel energized

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what about GOD?!

 is God makes me excited or His work?
is God alone is the reason i'm happy or His blessing?
is Jesus is the reason for me to feel blessed or His precious gift?

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all those question stay for quite some times...
bothering me..
makes me wondering...
push up my curiosity to the max...

i can feel...
. something is just not right
. something is going to the wrong direction
. something bad has been planted and grow inside me

I DON'T WANT THIS WAY!
I WANNA CHANGE!
 

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i want HIM to be the reason of my happiness
i want HIM to be the center of my joy
i want HIM alone the reason i feel blessed
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the i pray "Jesus...you know my desire...teach me to love you alone. Amen"

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