2013 kaleidoscope
last year i met one Lady that tried to kill herself several times because of a great storm in her life...
that night i met her on the bus and i saw her 'lost' eyes...
then she share to me that she was inviting storm by declare breakthrough as her new year resolution
This year...
i couldn't help myself not to declare the same thing!
i believe it was Holy Spirit that leads me on...
JANUARY
1 my New Year Resolution: BREAKTHROUGH!
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. Just arrived @ Changi airport
. she was very tense as she can sense something is just not right
. my father was stays at her side all time to cheer her up
9 my mother diagnose with CERVIX CANCER stage 4A
unexpectedly...her condition hit my father badly!
he was down for 3 hrs and nobody can console him...
. my brother & sister in law join us from Surabaya
. they gave a great support since he is my mom's the fave son
. a humble Pastor
. a great buddy
. our spiritual mentor
Pastor Charles Bessie and Family came to support us in prayer
and they stay with us all the way. Thank you Pastor!
12 the doctor reduce the stage to 2A based on PET scan result
. the doctor estimate the treatment cost around 50K
. the doctor said radiotherapy are the same all over the world coz its done by the same machine
. the doctor said chemo also the same all over the world coz the same medicine will be used
. the only thing that make different is the doctor who monitored the progress
. so we try every possible ways to get cheaper treatment including consider to do in Melaka
. party is still halal in the storm right?!
. hahahahahahaha
15 we met Radiation Oncologist
. He gave us the exact number
. the number going down from 50K to 15K *miracle*
. the best thing is: it's Mount Elizabeth Hospital
. the most expensive hospital in town
. WOW
17 Jan - 4 Mar My mom gone through 31 times radiotherapy and 6 times chemotherapy
. she was extremely nervous on the 1st day
. all the nurses tried to injected the calm but they were failed
. at last: the nurse allowed me to send her to the room
. talk to her and make her comfy
......................................................................
. it was 10 mins inside for the first day
. the rest of treatments only 2 mins per session
..........................................................................
she came out with a smile and all the nurses applaud for her brave heart
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she pray for one thing: God please don't take my hair!
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. as the treatment goes day by day we can see swollen cheeks as the effect of water resistance
. she experience the side effect like severe diarrhea
. but God granted her wish! her hair stays :)
1st Chemo
. the nervous attack her again
. she was anxious the night before
. looking at people at the clinic drag her anxious even deeper
BUT WE WERE THERE! me and my sister
so we made joke...the nurse jump in with their jokes as well and with that atmosphere changed...finally she smiles :)
God send His people including my healing ministry coordinator to pray for her and strengthen her with the word of God
. the rest of the chemo went well as no side effect on her at all
. that's a reward for having healthy life style all along
. i have to admit: it was hard!
. we were like in the midst of storm with no-view at all where to go...
FEBRUARY
2 short and refreshing trip to Batam...only 2 of us ;)
7 share her testimony @ healing ministry
17 steamboat party!
I used to
think that life was hills and valleys – you go through a dark time, then
you go to the mountaintop, back and forth. I don’t believe that
anymore. Rather
than life being hills and valleys, I believe that it’s kind of like two
rails on a railroad track, and at all times you have something good and
something bad in your life. No matter how good things are in your life, there is always something bad that needs to be worked on. And no matter how bad things are in your life, there is always something good you can thank God for. ~ Rick Warren
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late Feb the doctor said my father's kidney getting worst
20 God shows me His great power that move through me!
in the middle of the uncertainty about my mother's condition
...i was with my mom at the hospital for her chemo and Holy Spirit leads me to pray for a struggle woman
i learn one thing the-struggle-me can strengthen others only by the power of Holy Spirit!
MARCH
5 my mom and dad went to visit Dr. Matius in Bandung
i was searching for the answer to our action
then suddenly this statement pop-up and hit my mind
a very strong confirmation!
We've graduated to a whole new level~fast&furius6
. we surely graduated and move on to another level
. 63 years old man...invite Jesus into his life personally
. his been christian for all of his life but never encounter Jesus
. he even start to speak in tongue
. he burst in spirit
16-18 refreshing trip to KL with my mom&dad
this is our privilege
this is our opportunity given by God
to make them happy in the midst of big storm
19 Divine Appointment with Pastor Amos Jayarathnam
. it was very early in the morning and we met him at the Q line
. He was about to flying to Manado
21 PSI hit 400 O.o
WooooHoooo...it was a great experience in the haze
wkwkwkwkwkwkwk
24 Rebecca 1st Breakthrough
JULY
10 Torkis's breakthrough: miracle happen in his career!
this is big but as requested by him...i won't share it here ;)
19 my breakthrough: conducting Seminar + Workshop on Resume Writing
. the work that I've been dream on for the last 10 years
. WooooooHoooooo!
AUGUST
18 My mom back for another PET scan
. the result was great
29 my brother's family problems getting bigger and worst
30 Registration day for Calvin primary school but he didn't get in to any school in Singapore
SEPTEMBER
. she's been trusted to stay in the first row
30 we received letter from MOE (Ministry of Education) stated that Calvin get the lower rank school in Singapore
WHY?! you may find the answer here
NOVEMBER
9-14 Phuket & Bangkok Holiday Trip
Oct-Nov we just have to survive through my brother's family crises
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my mom has been praying faithfully for the last 35 years
God answer it this year
through cancer?!
why not?!
God knows the best right?!
so what's big?! GOD IT IS!
His plan that can be touched by our human mind
. We fails to see our greatest problems
. We expect someone who will settle everything OUTSIDE of us
People came out the same storm testify HOW GOD HEAL THEIR disease
We testify HOW GOD GROWS THE CHRIST CHARACTER in us through the storm
Jesus came to renew us from the inside!
that's GODLY ETERNITY!
Life is a series of problems: Either you are in one now, you’re just coming out of one, or you’re getting ready to go into another one. The reason for this is that God is more interested in your character than your comfort. God is more interested in making your life holy than He is in making your life happy. We can be reasonably happy here on earth, but that’s not the goal of life. The goal is to grow in character, in Christ likeness. ~ Rick Warren
if we have right perspective about God: nothing too big to stop us from praising Him!
HAVE A WONDERFUL YEAR BLESSED PEOPLE!
that night i met her on the bus and i saw her 'lost' eyes...
then she share to me that she was inviting storm by declare breakthrough as her new year resolution
This year...
i couldn't help myself not to declare the same thing!
i believe it was Holy Spirit that leads me on...
JANUARY
1 my New Year Resolution: BREAKTHROUGH!
Holy Spirit whisper softly: "get ready for the BIG
BATTLE!"
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My Mother:
. she's been well for 57 years without any disease at all
. she never been admitted to hospital
. her health check-up was excellent
. NO-cholesterol, NO-diabetes, NO-uric acid, NO high or low blood pressure: clear!
. NO-cholesterol, NO-diabetes, NO-uric acid, NO high or low blood pressure: clear!
. she has healing anointing that many people been
miraculously healed when she pray for them
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7 my parents arrived in Singapore for medical check-up as my mother experience heavy bleeding so we thought she was about to enter her menopause stage
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7 my parents arrived in Singapore for medical check-up as my mother experience heavy bleeding so we thought she was about to enter her menopause stage
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| Mom&Dad |
. Just arrived @ Changi airport
. she was very tense as she can sense something is just not right
. my father was stays at her side all time to cheer her up
9 my mother diagnose with CERVIX CANCER stage 4A
unexpectedly...her condition hit my father badly!
he was down for 3 hrs and nobody can console him...
10 gone for PET SCAN
. she has doctor-phobia
. she never gone through any medical check-up other than blood test
. she was extremely nervous by imagining the scan process
. they injected some radioactive in her body
. the radioactive trace the cancer cell
. it with glow under the scan when it found the cancer cell
. the whole process took around 1.5 hr
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| PET Scan |
. she never gone through any medical check-up other than blood test
. she was extremely nervous by imagining the scan process
. they injected some radioactive in her body
. the radioactive trace the cancer cell
. it with glow under the scan when it found the cancer cell
. the whole process took around 1.5 hr
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| surround by Supporting People |
. they gave a great support since he is my mom's the fave son
. a humble Pastor
. a great buddy
. our spiritual mentor
Pastor Charles Bessie and Family came to support us in prayer
and they stay with us all the way. Thank you Pastor!
12 the doctor reduce the stage to 2A based on PET scan result
. the doctor estimate the treatment cost around 50K
. the doctor said radiotherapy are the same all over the world coz its done by the same machine
. the doctor said chemo also the same all over the world coz the same medicine will be used
. the only thing that make different is the doctor who monitored the progress
. so we try every possible ways to get cheaper treatment including consider to do in Melaka
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| Pizza Party |
. party is still halal in the storm right?!
. hahahahahahaha
15 we met Radiation Oncologist
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| uncle doctor also wants to take pic :D |
. He gave us the exact number
. the number going down from 50K to 15K *miracle*
. the best thing is: it's Mount Elizabeth Hospital
. the most expensive hospital in town
. WOW
17 Jan - 4 Mar My mom gone through 31 times radiotherapy and 6 times chemotherapy
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| Radiotherapy |
. all the nurses tried to injected the calm but they were failed
. at last: the nurse allowed me to send her to the room
. talk to her and make her comfy
......................................................................
. it was 10 mins inside for the first day
. the rest of treatments only 2 mins per session
..........................................................................
she came out with a smile and all the nurses applaud for her brave heart
......................................................................................
she pray for one thing: God please don't take my hair!
......................................................................................
. as the treatment goes day by day we can see swollen cheeks as the effect of water resistance
. she experience the side effect like severe diarrhea
. but God granted her wish! her hair stays :)
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| 1st Chemo |
1st Chemo
. the nervous attack her again
. she was anxious the night before
. looking at people at the clinic drag her anxious even deeper
BUT WE WERE THERE! me and my sister
so we made joke...the nurse jump in with their jokes as well and with that atmosphere changed...finally she smiles :)
God send His people including my healing ministry coordinator to pray for her and strengthen her with the word of God
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| Chemo sessions |
. the rest of the chemo went well as no side effect on her at all
. that's a reward for having healthy life style all along
. i have to admit: it was hard!
. we were like in the midst of storm with no-view at all where to go...
. my spiritual mom
says "there is only one way: stay firm in the word of God"
. our spiritual friend came and pray for us
. God send His people to strengthen us
. God send His people to strengthen us
. we can only share to a few number of people
29 my father went back to work
. she's been strong since she found out about the cancer
. she never cry
. until the day...the man that she loved had to went back
. the man that always stay by her side
. pampered her like a baby
. now because of his job...he have to go back *ugh*
. this is the most difficult and heartbreaking part
. she hugged him tight and doesn't want to let go
. but at last she had too
31 scary and great day!
. My mom bleeding has stopped since the first day of radiotherapy
. that morning my mom went in the toilet before treatment
. suddenly she opened the door and panicky calling me
. i went to the toilet and saw the floor covered with blood
. i tried to calm her and help her to clean
. my brother step in after we went out to continue clean the toilet
. the nurse immediately contact the doctor
. we were sitting down over there waiting for the doctor with mind full of scenario
. what happen?!
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all along...it was me alone...hearing all the diagnoses and understand her condition in detail...the strength in me makes me wonders...this is not me!...i knew it well...my abba Father give me that power to gone through everything...since the first day...it was only me...who saw and understand every single thing...including dealing with the blood here and there...
so i went to spoke to the doctor alone while my mom and brother waiting outside
the first question from doctor was: "what color of the blood?!"
it was brown...dark brown!
and the doctor said "great!"
i was what?!?!?!
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doctor explain:
it means the cancer size has shrinking down...the blood and blood cloth that has been there for quite some times making their ways out...that's the reason he is asking for the color of the blood
if...it is a fresh blood that mean the radiotherapy has reach out to her bladder or colon and trigger some bleeding
*fiiiiiuuuuh* what a day!
29 my father went back to work
. she never cry
. until the day...the man that she loved had to went back
. the man that always stay by her side
. pampered her like a baby
. now because of his job...he have to go back *ugh*
. this is the most difficult and heartbreaking part
. she hugged him tight and doesn't want to let go
. but at last she had too
31 scary and great day!
. My mom bleeding has stopped since the first day of radiotherapy
. that morning my mom went in the toilet before treatment
. suddenly she opened the door and panicky calling me
. i went to the toilet and saw the floor covered with blood
. i tried to calm her and help her to clean
. my brother step in after we went out to continue clean the toilet
. the nurse immediately contact the doctor
. we were sitting down over there waiting for the doctor with mind full of scenario
. what happen?!
....................................
all along...it was me alone...hearing all the diagnoses and understand her condition in detail...the strength in me makes me wonders...this is not me!...i knew it well...my abba Father give me that power to gone through everything...since the first day...it was only me...who saw and understand every single thing...including dealing with the blood here and there...
so i went to spoke to the doctor alone while my mom and brother waiting outside
the first question from doctor was: "what color of the blood?!"
it was brown...dark brown!
and the doctor said "great!"
i was what?!?!?!
....................................
doctor explain:
it means the cancer size has shrinking down...the blood and blood cloth that has been there for quite some times making their ways out...that's the reason he is asking for the color of the blood
if...it is a fresh blood that mean the radiotherapy has reach out to her bladder or colon and trigger some bleeding
*fiiiiiuuuuh* what a day!
FEBRUARY
2 short and refreshing trip to Batam...only 2 of us ;)
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| Batam Trip |
7 share her testimony @ healing ministry
17 steamboat party!
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| Steamboat Party |
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My Father:
. he has diabetes for the last 30 years
. Singapore
doctor was watching over his condition for the last 3 years
. last diagnose was He is at the last stage before dialysis.
. The doctor warned him to maintain his stress level as it
won't be benefit to his kidney function
. turn-out he is most devastated person in the family due to my mom's condition .................................................................
late Feb the doctor said my father's kidney getting worst
20 God shows me His great power that move through me!
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| praying for stranger |
in the middle of the uncertainty about my mother's condition
...i was with my mom at the hospital for her chemo and Holy Spirit leads me to pray for a struggle woman
i learn one thing the-struggle-me can strengthen others only by the power of Holy Spirit!
MARCH
5 my mom and dad went to visit Dr. Matius in Bandung
He was a doctor specialized in cancer and retired early to
learn about herbal medicine.
He is godly doctor that commit his early hours every day
like 3-7 am to pray for all his patient. By God's grace my mom and dad met him
and they health made such a miraculously improvement
Up to now my father is great without dialysis
doctor Matius said the problem is not in his kidney but prostate
Singapore doctor never touch this part at all
Up to now my father is great without dialysis
doctor Matius said the problem is not in his kidney but prostate
Singapore doctor never touch this part at all
17 I pay a visit to Calvin & Rebecca school
. I lost connect with them during my mom treatment
. an urge in me to checking on them through the teacher's
eyes
. Calvin's teacher gave me a bad feedback about him
especially his attitude
. i knew my lack of cares and attention from me put him in that position
. i was walking like a zombie from Calvin's school to
Rebecca's school feeling hopeless
. everything seems falling apart
. Rebecca's teacher give me the other side of bad news: she
have made a great improvement
. even teacher from other classes came and throw many compliments on her...
APRIL
10 My mom back for another PET Scan that required to be done 1 month after treatment
. even teacher from other classes came and throw many compliments on her...
APRIL
10 My mom back for another PET Scan that required to be done 1 month after treatment
. the result was great: all the cancer that grows in the
womb were gone
. she have to came back on June for another check-up
. while my dad have stopped seeing spore doctor as dr. Matius treatment gave him significant improvement
during April i was struggle with Calvin's piano...
. i went back home and crying after every class
. he did not made any improvement at all
. i almost gave up and stop the piano class
. i think it was due to my fatigue body as well
MAY
9 Spiritual Breakthrough: we leave the church that been a family for us in Singapore
during April i was struggle with Calvin's piano...
. i went back home and crying after every class
. he did not made any improvement at all
. i almost gave up and stop the piano class
. i think it was due to my fatigue body as well
MAY
9 Spiritual Breakthrough: we leave the church that been a family for us in Singapore
i was searching for the answer to our action
then suddenly this statement pop-up and hit my mind
a very strong confirmation!
We've graduated to a whole new level~fast&furius6
. we surely graduated and move on to another level
. we join Agape
Baptist Church
and the family's chemistry were strong in the first day
. the teaching are powerful based on the word of God not
people's experience
. this is we called spiritually breakthrough
. we step out from spiritual
JUNE
. we step out from spiritual
JUNE
3 My mom came back for another check-up
the substitute doctor asking for another PET scan in 2
months time as the PET scan result shown something left after the treatment
7 My brother's family gone to a great storm
while my parents
was strongly recommended to avoid stress *which is no way*
9 my father's spiritual breakthrough
9 my father's spiritual breakthrough
. 63 years old man...invite Jesus into his life personally
. his been christian for all of his life but never encounter Jesus
. he even start to speak in tongue
. he burst in spirit
16-18 refreshing trip to KL with my mom&dad
this is our privilege
this is our opportunity given by God
to make them happy in the midst of big storm
19 Divine Appointment with Pastor Amos Jayarathnam
. He was about to flying to Manado
. He is a great and famous Pastor
. if we meet him in Indonesia we will together with thousand people
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that particular morning: God send him only for my parents
for my newborn father!
Divine Appointment!
20 my parents went to visit doctor Matius
. if we meet him in Indonesia we will together with thousand people
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that particular morning: God send him only for my parents
for my newborn father!
Divine Appointment!
20 my parents went to visit doctor Matius
. he is strongly believe my mom doesn't need any PET scan
. the remind spot is not cancer according to him
. it was only cyst
21 PSI hit 400 O.o
WooooHoooo...it was a great experience in the haze
wkwkwkwkwkwkwk
24 Rebecca 1st Breakthrough
. Rebecca is a late talker
. she is more like blubbering than talking
. she is more like blubbering than talking
. after attending Agapeland for 1 month during holiday
. the teachers at school are surprised by her improvement
. the teachers at school are surprised by her improvement
JULY
10 Torkis's breakthrough: miracle happen in his career!
this is big but as requested by him...i won't share it here ;)
19 my breakthrough: conducting Seminar + Workshop on Resume Writing
. the work that I've been dream on for the last 10 years
. WooooooHoooooo!
AUGUST
18 My mom back for another PET scan
. there was a great news when i called to make appointment
. all my moms doctor have a meeting and they are all agree
that she doesn't need another PET scan!
. WOW
20 another check up
. the result was great
. the cyst is gone as well
. pap smear: clear!
. pap smear: clear!
. the doctor said she can came back next year
29 my brother's family problems getting bigger and worst
30 Registration day for Calvin primary school but he didn't get in to any school in Singapore
SEPTEMBER
10-13 my parents and a few numbers of their
parents conducting a spiritual realm seminar with Merry Thesman as a speaker
20 Rebecca's Breakthrough: Rebecca's concert
. she's been trusted to stay in the first row
. she perform very well
. the teachers and principle praise her for her improvement
through the year
. BBQ Party @ east coast
. eating-singing-dancing-laughing until night time
.WoooHooo
OCTOBER
6-8 Opung doli & Opung boru went to Phuket for holiday with Daddy
29 Opung Doli&Opung Boru - Pdt. Annakota &wife came to visit
. BBQ Party @ east coast
. eating-singing-dancing-laughing until night time
.WoooHooo
OCTOBER
6-8 Opung doli & Opung boru went to Phuket for holiday with Daddy
. they took 1 day tour to Phi-Phi Island
. Opung doli said he love Thai food
. He was very happy and keep telling how good the Thai food is
. Thank God for the opportunity to make them happy
19 Calvin's breakthrough: Calvin's concert and graduation
. Opung doli said he love Thai food
. He was very happy and keep telling how good the Thai food is
. Thank God for the opportunity to make them happy
19 Calvin's breakthrough: Calvin's concert and graduation
. he was the lead actor in the grand concert!
. a kid with an attitude issue before now been trusted a very important role
. a kid with an attitude issue before now been trusted a very important role
. some teachers and parents came to me and praise his
performance
. they said they can feel the presence of God when the saw
Calvin *WOW*
30 we received letter from MOE (Ministry of Education) stated that Calvin get the lower rank school in Singapore
WHY?! you may find the answer here
NOVEMBER
9-14 Phuket & Bangkok Holiday Trip
Oct-Nov we just have to survive through my brother's family crises
a Pastor came to visit us and teach me this:
. no bad circumstances in your life coz God is in control
. you rejoice in the good time
. you Christ-character grows through the storm
SEE ALL THE CIRCUMSTANCES THROUGH GOD'S EYE!
and you will be
able to stand and praise Him...rejoice...in every circumstances
DECEMBER
DECEMBER
20 Calvin's Piano Concert
click here for Calvin's Convert Video
. i almost gave up with his piano course
. it turn out he can play well @ the concert
. WoooHooo!!!
close to Christmas slowly the storm became weaker!
. i almost gave up with his piano course
. it turn out he can play well @ the concert
. WoooHooo!!!
close to Christmas slowly the storm became weaker!
if the storm stays...it means God is not finished with us yet!
if the storm gone...it means He is done!
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| Merry Christmas |
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the question is:
. Why God's people that has been trusted with His anointing
experience this storm?
. Why the cost of breakthrough is this much?
. is the disease from God or evil?
in fact: WE DON'T BOTHER ABOUT ALL THOSE QUESTION!
the answer to all those questions is IT'S A BLESSING TO EXPERIENCE THIS STORM
the answer to all those questions is IT'S A BLESSING TO EXPERIENCE THIS STORM
. His guidance and protection are clear and real
. All the word of God that has been stored in our soul for years became real
. The power of God that manifested in us demonstrated in wonders
why we troubling our mind and heart by asking those question?
it just not relevant!
This point of view will empower us to give thanks in every circumstances!
. All the word of God that has been stored in our soul for years became real
. The power of God that manifested in us demonstrated in wonders
why we troubling our mind and heart by asking those question?
it just not relevant!
This point of view will empower us to give thanks in every circumstances!
. my mom has a good relationship with God through her prayer
time
. Her life full with the word of God
. in the storm the word of God are real
she never ask WHY?
many times we say: rejoice in every circumstances!
only through storm the word of God are real
we experience the power of Almighty God
God was not present as a judges through the storm
WE NEVER FAIL TO PRAISE HIM because of 1 reason:
MY FATHER TRULY REPENTANCE!
HE MET GOD PERSONALLY IN THE STORM!
GOD PUT ETERNITY IN MY FATHER'S LIFE
my mom has been praying faithfully for the last 35 years
God answer it this year
through cancer?!
why not?!
God knows the best right?!
so what's big?! GOD IT IS!
His plan that can be touched by our human mind
today's Christmas message...
. We fails to see our greatest problems
. We expect someone who will settle everything OUTSIDE of us
People came out the same storm testify HOW GOD HEAL THEIR disease
We testify HOW GOD GROWS THE CHRIST CHARACTER in us through the storm
Jesus came to renew us from the inside!
that's GODLY ETERNITY!
Life is a series of problems: Either you are in one now, you’re just coming out of one, or you’re getting ready to go into another one. The reason for this is that God is more interested in your character than your comfort. God is more interested in making your life holy than He is in making your life happy. We can be reasonably happy here on earth, but that’s not the goal of life. The goal is to grow in character, in Christ likeness. ~ Rick Warren
if we have right perspective about God: nothing too big to stop us from praising Him!
HAVE A WONDERFUL YEAR BLESSED PEOPLE!
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