for my 11 years old boy
Calvin...
If I would have to choose
I would choose not to force you to wake up in the
morning
I choose to seeing you enjoy your sleep
If I would have to choose
I would choose not to force you to do your homework
I would choose to see your happy face enjoy playing
badminton
if I would have to choose
I would choose NOT to discipline you
I would choose NOT to screaming-scolding-shouting at
you for your mistake
If I would have to choose
I would choose NOT to HURT you with my fear
If I would have to choose
I would choose to forget about the school and all
those marks
If I would have to choose
I would choose you enjoy the life in the way you like
BUT
Calvin
The world is NOT operating in that way
The world have its own system that we need to adjust
to it
Mommy...with all I have in me
want you to be HAPPY
Happy does not necessarily you are always in
fun-good-wonderful situation
Happy means your enjoy the good time
Happy means your peace sustain you in bad time
Mommy...as much as I can
I choose LOVE over my FEAR
I've tried with all my power and I will continue to
try:
. to understand you when you makes me upset
. to love you when you make mistake
. to comforts you when you are in trouble
I put those action in 4 letters: LOVE
you may not understand LOVE in the form of scolding
you may not understand LOVE in the form of anger
what you feel now is hurt! pain!
that's the reason...
that's the reason...
I bend my knees
I bow my head
lift up my heart to Jesus
because...
only Jesus can help me
only Jesus can makes you understand
understand the LOVE in the form of discipline
scolding, screaming, angry is very tiring!
scolding, screaming, angry is very painful!
it is not hurting you only
it is hurting me even more
because I hurt the ones the I love
Please forgive me for all those things that
I have done that hurting you even now
when you read this and
you remember those day
Please release forgiveness for me
looking at you now
- a responsible boy
- independent
- diligent
- sensible
- caring
- loving
- soft-hearted boy
my heart filled with proud!
you are my favorite boy!
one thing that I desire in your life
you grow to love God with all your heart
you planted deeply in God's word
your life pleasing God
you grow to love God with all your heart
you planted deeply in God's word
your life pleasing God
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