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Wednesday, December 07, 2016

my Papa and my Father


Christmas is around the corner


This is the first time I’m scared of Christmas
This is the first time I feel like to skip the most wonderful month of the year
This is the first time Christmas struggle me in my mind and my heart

All of these years...
I never fail to  expecting-enjoy-rejoice in Christmas for many reasons. Last year was great! around this time I was on my way to home...after so many years spending Christmas in other places...other than my home-my heart filled and full of joy.

This year...
every hope
every joy
every fun
every Christmas thing
...seems to fade away
...looks dim in my sight
...sound weird in my ears

I don't know...I'm scared to Christmas would be? 


That's because of you are no longer with us 


I'm struggling within me
I'm fighting against me


I don't want this suffering to overwhelm . overcome . defeat me 


for 1 reason: my JOY is in the LORD alone!


only God and God alone is the source of my joy


I can feel the pain is real
I know it beating me down


I don't want to give up my joy for the lie that evil put in my heart!


The joy  of Christmas is not in my Papa
The joy of Christmas is in my Father 



This Christmas will also a wonderful and joyful time!
even more!

knowing that...

my Papa is in eternal joy and peace with my Father in heaven


Merry Christmas Papa! 

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Thursday, October 20, 2016

Ezekiel 36:25-29

My gracious Lord!!!

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Friday, October 14, 2016

They are Grown Up!

Calvin 9 
Rebecca 7

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Tuesday, October 11, 2016

New Wisdom . New Understanding

God send me to the world to reach out for the lost

NOT for me to change their life
BUT  to DO God's will

changing somebody's life is God's job! God's Part!
submit and obey God is my part

in the field...

i learn to be obedience
...that means fighting against my own comfort and self-righteousness

i learn to be humble
...that means fighting against my own pride

i learn to grow my perseverance
...stay! serve! love! even though everything else comes against me
...pain! struggle! hurt! won't stop me coz that's the way to learn: Jesus is enough for me

i learn to share God's love the impossible and undeserving people
...coz i'm the undeserving person who received God's grace freely

i learn to trust God the most impossible and difficult time

all these things mould me and shape me to be more like Jesus

...eventually the end of the day

it is my life that changed NOT anybody else

His grace changed my life in the field!
I need grace as much as the lost! or anybody else!
I need to preach gospel to myself more than anybody else

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Friday, June 10, 2016


Learn from Vincent Billy's case, I found a good article for parents

Vincent Billy was a bright and smart kid that committed suicide when he failed on his final project in university

by. Mrs Elly Risman
(Senior Psychologist and Consultant, University of Indonesia)

We never know...
what kind of the world that our children will face in the future, then teach and train them to solve their own problem now

Do not pray all roles for them...
. mother
. chef
. dishwasher

. father
. driver
. plumber

You are NOT a member of RESCUE TEAM!
Your children are not in danger
NO S.O.S signal
Do not always force yourselves to help and fix everything

#Children complain the toy puzzle cannot connected each other..."Let me help"
#The water bottle a little difficult to open "Come...Mommy do"
#Shoelace hard to tied "Here...Daddy tie for you"
#Oil sprinkled on that little hand "Come...Mommy wipe"

What will your children be?!

If help provided out of the storm
What happens when disaster really come?

Give the children opportunity to find their OWN solution before jump in and help them
#1 The ability to handle stress
#2 Solve the problem
#3 Find the Solution
...are the skilled that must be trained and learned by the children
...those skills are not just happened without any training

The ability to solve problems and survive in trouble times without giving up could have an impact for decades to come

Not only can make a person graduate from school
but also passed the test of the storm trough life and marriage

It is seems not important...
"what's wrong with helping my children?!"

If you immediately rush to save them from all the difficulties
They would become FRAGILE and WITHER

Hurt little bit, complain!
Fight a bit, as for a divorce!
Facing small problem, gone crazy!

IF you spend lots of time paying attention and money for their IQ
THEN put the same effort for their AQ

What is AQ?


According to Paul G. Stoltz
AQ is the intelligence in his face difficulties or obstacles and the ability to survive in a variety of life's difficulties and challenges experienced. 

Would this intelligence more important than IQ to face daily problems?

the feeling of being able to passed the test is a an incredible pleasure
being able to solve the problem, ranging from simple to difficult will give confident to the children and make them believe that asking for help is the last option when things really out of their hands


LET your children go through difficulties in life

NO problem if child suffered from minor cuts,
a little cry
a little disappointment
a little bit late
get wet by the rain

HOLD your tongue, hands and heart from providing assistance
Teach them to HANDLE the frustration

If you are always a fairy godmother or guardian angel.
What happens if you are no longer breath again tomorrow?

your kids may follow you to the grave

It is hard not to intervene when looking at your own child in pain, grief and struggle
Moreover as parent, the first instinct is to protect our children
So train the children's AQ is a test for parents as well

But...please understand...
Life is not easy, the problem will always be there and they must be able to survive
Many times we cannot avoid passing through the rain, storm and difficulties in life

Your action now gives them future!

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