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Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Calvin's Big Bold Prayer

Beginning this year...

our senior Pastor led us to learn...
#1  to trust God for the impossible
#2  to be ready and align with God's answer
through Big Bold Prayer request

a thought came to my mind...
it's gonna be wonderful if we journey together with Calvin and Rebecca

so i bought special paper and envelope
let's do it in kids' fun way

then i pray...
God i don't know how to make them understand this
i need your wisdom to lead this kids in this journey
i need your mercy for us to experience You in this journey

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a few weeks after that...

I shared that with Calvin & Rebecca then we sit down together at the table to think . discuss . write our own big bold prayer

the kids were puzzled with their request...
so much to ask for
and everything seems to be important

their request are more for books, toys and special holiday ๐Ÿ˜„๐Ÿ˜„๐Ÿ˜„

quite tough to share what is important
coz for them those stuff are important for their happiness...hehehehe...

so i start with mine...

"i pray that my body back to the normal size"

they were laughing on my prayer request...

"mommy! it's been years...you never gone down...how come you asking for that?!"


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aHa! i got you!!!
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i love they picturing it that way...
now they understand what is impossible...
it led their mind to find their impossible...

TRUSTING THE IMPOSSIBLE TO THE MOST POSSIBLE GOD

Luke 1:37 for nothing will be impossible for God!

then...

they stared to write down their Big Bold Prayer
with some giggling...it seems like the impossible is a funny joke

after that...

we gather together and pray...
every one lay hands on their own envelope and pray the big bold prayer

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it's going on for weeks...
until one night...

Calvin: "God i pray that i will get straight A for all the subjects"

suddenly he stopped and turned to me...

whispering " but mom...i'm always failed for my Chinese!...no way i can get A!"

everybody open their eyes as we heard Calvin whispering in desperation


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i can sense Holy Spirit is moves and gives understanding
"Calvin...all these times...you've been doing and fighting for your Chinese with your own strength...when you ask God for A...you must allow Him to works in you!...it is no longer you but God!"

"and when you get A for Chinese...you know in your mind and in your heart...that is not you!...it is God who made it happened...and...you will experience how to worship God in spirit and in truth"
"learn to let God works in you Calvin!"

he seems to understand it...
he then folded his hands and with confidence and assurance voice he pray his Big Bold Prayer
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month after month
they continue to pray every time we gather for family prayer
without seeing it happening

it is impossible coz started this year Calvin doesn't have any home tutor
surprisingly he passed Chinese test at the 1st term

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end of May
end of term 2

the kids brought back their result
and came to our surprise

Calvin got 80 for his Chinese *WOW*
this is the highest mark ever

after all the celebration

i asked him

"have you say thank you to the Lord?"

and with bright happy eyes he says "YES! right after i got the exam paper back"

this is the first time he pray the thanksgiving prayer without me remind him

Calvin and us were surprised coz he got the highest mark ever without support from home tutor

THIS IS GOD!
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a few days later

they came back home and talking about something
i was busy around the house so i didn't pay attention on them

when i passed them...i heard Calvin say this

"I say Yes when Mr. Wong told me that i'm promoted to higher Chinese"

i stopped

me. "what did you say?"
C. "Mr. Wong told me in the class today that i'm promoted to higher Chinese"


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WOW!!! this is bigger than our Big Bold Prayer request

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at night...

Calvin shared the good news to his daddy
and he told Torkis that he doesn't want that promotion
he wants to continue with normal Chinese

me. "what makes you reject that offer?"

C. "higher Chinese is difficult..."

me. "God has shown you how He works in you...this promotion not from school...it is from God...by taking higher Chinese...it open the way for you to experience how God works in you once again"

C. "how if we try first mommy?"

me. "OK...if you want it in that way"

that means...no pressure!
if he feels it is too difficult...he can go back to normal

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it seems like God's answer made him happy and scared too

Well...he is walking with God...in his path
we can't intervene his faith...let it grows as God plan and design it
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after all settled

I take my time to talk with God

so much so say
nothing came out

so much to express
nothing came out

my heart fills with gratitude
my heart fills with joy
but nothing came out from my mouth

i'm only cry and cry for so long

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We don't know how to lead him to grow his faith in God
God open the way from Big Bold Prayer to give opportunity for Calvin to experience and understand God

We as parents limited in many ways...

we as parents...
we also need to learn to not counting on our own strength and wisdom
we need to allows God works in us and in our children's life
we need to learn to trust God for the impossible














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Thursday, July 13, 2017

a prayer has been answered

We experience this ---> click here!.  together with Calvin

so we've been praying to God for opening the door of opportunities for Calvin to explore-expose-experience himself just like Rebecca

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we don't how
we just keep praying
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yesterday...

a teacher approached him during recess time when he was talking to his friend...and....asked him if he can do the announcement for health...and...immediately he said Yes!

this is unlike Calvin!

He as a very confident boy but last year he withdrew himself out of the spotlight and rejected every opportunity that came to him

Rebecca was the other end...she allows herself to be exposed and explored in many ways

we've been praying for Calvin for quite some times

. praying that God makes him bold
. praying that God gives him opportunities just like Rebecca
. praying that Calvin grows the confidence in him again


by God's grace...
the opportunity has been given to Calvin
Praise the Lord

today...

Calvin delivered it well!

Thank you dear Jesus 

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Friday, July 07, 2017

Daddy in the eye of his daugther








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Saturday, June 10, 2017

When I STOPPED being a SUPER MOM


I transfer my energy from DOING everything for them...to...TRAIN them to do everything for themselves

#1 it requires...

... greater energy
... greater patience
... greater understanding
... greater compassion
... greater perseverance
... greater love


#2 i learn to...
... make friend with the mistakes
... make peace with the failure
... make a good term with laziness


i transfer my energy from DOING everything for them...to...TRAIN them to do everything from themselves



#1 it requires...
...greater energy
...greater patience
...greater understanding
...greater compassion
...greater perseverance
...greater love

#2 i learn to...
make friends with the failures
make peace with the mistake
make a good term with the laziness

#3 my daily menu has changed
it used to be physical activities then changing to emotional control and expectations management



just like today...

Calvin made a cup of hot chocolate then he just ignored the dirty table and continued to enjoy his drink



this picture gives me 2 options:

1st. clean up everything

this way used to be hard to deal!
not until I have the 2nd option

2nd. train Calvin to clean it

this means: apply the SOP...

1. calling him many times
2. showing - pointing - explaining his mistake
3. make him understand: that is his responsibility, not longer mine!
4. deal with his "anyhow" cleaning
5. make sure he understand cleaning as responsible

a few minutes later...

the same mistake happen
. at different places
. with different stuff

... repeat the SOP again!

option 2 makes me understand how easy option 1 was...but...i need ti move on

my super mom's mode has changed!

only and only...by playing along with option 2


I prepare the children to run their own future!


option 1: the end!
option 2: ON!

fight!!!

I want to enjoy the battle before option 3 take place


now i can understand a tiny bit how God sees me when i sin against Him over and over again...yet...He showing His mercy and grace over and over again

I'm quick to anger but He is slow to anger

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Friday, April 21, 2017

Earthly (temporary) vs Heavenly (eternal)


2nd week of March

I was on Facebook when premier audition popped up and out of nothing immediately I  registered Rebecca for the audition. 1 hour later I got a phone call from a lady and she introduced herself as premier's people, I guess she is from State from her accent.

WOW! this is pretty fast! they must be a professional company *I thought*

She went through a brief explanation about the audition including the venue and time.

but wait a minute!
what am I doing?!?!?!?!

I'm just registered Rebecca to a very professional audition and it makes me scared!

Calvin and Rebecca joined Disney Asia's audition before and it wasn't like this. It was a very simple audition, unlike this one.

Actually, I can just kick out this anxiety by pulled Rebecca out from the audition, but somehow another "voice" told me: proceed!

I kind of agree with the second voice ... I have no intention to make these kids a star or any kind of it.
I see this audition as a very good opportunity for them to express themselves and gain confidence through the experience
I see no problem joining this audition, it is good instead

but

Torkis might have different view
Torkis might strongly against this audition
Torkis might be angry because I did it without his permission

oh! boy!

Those voices hanging around my mind for a few days until I gave up!
bowed down before the Lord and repent from every wrongdoing that I commit
confessed to Him that I'm scared! I'm helpless!
ask His guidance and wisdom to deal with this situation I had

God sent His 3 aid to my emergency situation...

1st aid:  ci Ani agreed for Joel to join the audition as well and she immediately registered for Joel as well *Phew!*

2nd aid: Rebecca liked it! Rebecca loved it! she is excited about the audition

3rd aid: at last, Torkis approved my audition-visa and he even helps to talk to Calvin so he joins the audition as well...no matter how hard Torkis trying to pursue him, Calvin keeps rejecting it

bonus: until a few days before the audition...Calvin agreed for trying! *WoooHooo*

Thank you, Jesus for the aid+bonus that arrive on time!



1st April 2017: First Strike

Rebecca is excited, very high in spirit! she is so ready! while Calvin seems not sure about him to join the audition

We were waiting for our turn when Calvin told us that he withdrew from the audition *what?!*
Torkis then trying to encourage and convince him sharing our perspective of this audition
opportunity to gain experience
opportunity to gain confidence
opportunity to learn to overcome his fear

lose or win is not the issue!

he didn't buy all those things and stick to NO! *oh boy*

...I pray quietly...

I put my trust in You, Lord!

not long after that...Torkis signaling me that he is IN! *Thank you, Jesus, !*

we then proceed to the audition room and over there they have to do some acting with the Producer himself. He is loud and twisted the script a bit and they need to act along with him
He is in the news for beyond-border acting here

The moment Calvin stepped in...i hold my breath...he did it!!!

HE OVERCAME HIS FEAR!!!

that's my boy!!!
so proud of him!!!

his eyes shine brightly and seem like he is happy that he did it!

The first round finished and they announced those who passed to the second round

Rebecca move on
Calvin didn't make it

Calvin head down shows that he was very disappointed *oh boy*


I thank God I have Torkis...He stick by Calvin's side and trying to address every issue due to the result

Torkis patiently and gently trying to lead Calvin out of his disappointment and see the good side

He is ok at the time but something is not settled

we didn't know...God planned on something
something great!

First Strike!


7 April 2017: Second Strike


Rebecca joined the Storytelling Competition at school on 3rd April and selected as the TOP 3
students from every level joined to competition and they paired up to do the storytelling while Rebecca chose to be a single-fighter
She beat all contestant even from upper primary and won the 1st prize *WoooHooo!*

Today, the TOP 3 presenting their story to the whole school

She is very confidence and presenting it very well!
She owned the stage! that's what her teacher told us

we are so proud of her!

Everyone praising her
Everyone shower her with praises
Everyone talks about her

at the other corner...

Calvin doomed!

the girl sits next to him, turned to him and say this
"you are lousy! your sister better than you!"


Second Strike!


Torkis and me aware of the situation that he had in him
but we chose to take time and hold back and let him learn to handle it
but actually, we are helpless!
we need to take time to pray too!


early days..we simply thought that it was only an audition and it turned out this way...

my heart is crushed for him
my mind shut down and I can't think of anything
the only thing I know is I'm helpless!

I cried out to God
I'm begging
I'm knocking
I'm banging heaven's door
...for help

nothing happened!
no aid delivered this time...

seems like God want me to learn to rest in Him

my anxiety makes me not aware that actually, God is working!
...actively!

at night after the competition is badminton time! fun time!
it is a playing, running, screaming, joyful time for the kids

Saturday evening, we had another round of fun time at water park-Graden by the Bay
the kids had so much fun, more than the night before...they went straight to bed after we arrived at home

Sunday we spent the whole morning until early in the evening at church then we met Benny and his family for dinner
Fun seems doesn't want to stop with them

9 April 2017: God's Deliverance

We went back home exhausted for having fun time 3 days in a row
The kids did their homework then we gathered for praying time

Calvin completely forget about all his disappointment and humiliation until we prayed

Rebecca started her prayer with thanking Jesus for His mercy and grace on the Storytelling Competition
Calvin says a short thankful prayer

after prayer we made them sit down and talk

Rebecca...
you've done a great job!
we are very proud of you!
you work hard for it and you deserved the 1st prize

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you are great in the eye of people around
but
Calvin is great in the eye of the Lord
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both of them shocked with the statement!
Calvin suddenly lift up his head and looked at us
Rebecca put a big question on her face

Rebecca...
everyone talked about you
it takes only 1 week for people to forget about your achievement
but
Calvin did something that makes heaven singing

3 years back...

Calvin was bullied, kicking, punching, terrorized by a boy
the small little Calvin have to carry 2 lunch box every day to share with the boy
that lunch box not only contain food but love as well
Calvin share God's love to the boy who makes him suffer

He suffer but he never complain
He is willing to go through all the tough time for the boy understand about love

after 3 years

the boy and his family now attending church regularly

everyone in the school praising Rebecca
everyone acknowledge how good and confidence Rebecca is

while

nobody in the school knows about what Calvin have done
nobody praising him for what he has done
but
God knows!
God acknowledge!
God remember!
heaven rejoice and singing for a family come to know Christ!


Psalm 19:1-4 
The heavens declare the glory of God;the skies proclaim the work of his hands.
Day after day they pour forth speech;night after night they reveal knowledge.
They have no speech, they use no words;no sound is heard from them.
Yet their voice goes out into all the earth.their words to the ends of the world.


it's good to have an awesome achievement in this world
but to do eternity work far more important than that

do you still remember what is Jesus' food on John 4:34?!
Jesus' food is to do God's will
that kind of food satisfy your soul

this year we learn about the Gospel of John at BSF

Calvin...
if someone says you are lousy for this and that
you don't need to response to them
you need to tell yourself

I'm created in the mighty hands of my Jesus
I'm created to do His will


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Calvin face changed
something shines brightly in his eyes
he changed in the way he sees  himself

Rebecca changed as well
now she understand what is the important thing

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to change them
to put understanding in them
...only God can do it!
...Praise Him for His wonderful work in our children's life

and as for us...

we were trying to encourage Calvin in many ways
but it seems that our efforts hit the wall
it doesn't move Calvin at all

but

when the truth is spoken
when the word of God is shared

The power of the Lord moved and changed his heart

Thank your dear Jesus! The True Living God!
You alone deserve the honor and glory and worship!

Deuteronomy 6:4-9 

4 Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one. 5 Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. 6 These commandments that I give you today are to be on your hearts. 7 Impress them on your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up. 8 Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads. 9 Write them on the doorframes of your houses and on your gates.