Earthly (temporary) vs Heavenly (eternal)
2nd week of March
I was on Facebook when premier audition popped up and out of nothing immediately I registered Rebecca for the audition. 1 hour later I got a phone call from a lady and she introduced herself as premier's people, I guess she is from State from her accent.
WOW! this is pretty fast! they must be a professional company *I thought*
She went through a brief explanation about the audition including the venue and time.
but wait a minute!
what am I doing?!?!?!?!
I'm just registered Rebecca to a very professional audition and it makes me scared!
Calvin and Rebecca joined Disney Asia's audition before and it wasn't like this. It was a very simple audition, unlike this one.
Actually, I can just kick out this anxiety by pulled Rebecca out from the audition, but somehow another "voice" told me: proceed!
I kind of agree with the second voice ... I have no intention to make these kids a star or any kind of it.
I see this audition as a very good opportunity for them to express themselves and gain confidence through the experience
I see no problem joining this audition, it is good instead
Torkis might have different view
Torkis might strongly against this audition
Torkis might be angry because I did it without his permission
Those voices hanging around my mind for a few days until I gave up!
bowed down before the Lord and repent from every wrongdoing that I commit
confessed to Him that I'm scared! I'm helpless!
ask His guidance and wisdom to deal with this situation I had
God sent His 3 aid to my emergency situation...
1st aid: ci Ani agreed for Joel to join the audition as well and she immediately registered for Joel as well *Phew!*
2nd aid: Rebecca liked it! Rebecca loved it! she is excited about the audition
3rd aid: at last, Torkis approved my audition-visa and he even helps to talk to Calvin so he joins the audition as well...no matter how hard Torkis trying to pursue him, Calvin keeps rejecting it
bonus: until a few days before the audition...Calvin agreed for trying! *WoooHooo*
Thank you, Jesus for the aid+bonus that arrive on time!
1st April 2017: First Strike
Rebecca is excited, very high in spirit! she is so ready! while Calvin seems not sure about him to join the audition
We were waiting for our turn when Calvin told us that he withdrew from the audition *what?!*
Torkis then trying to encourage and convince him sharing our perspective of this audition
opportunity to gain experience
opportunity to gain confidence
opportunity to learn to overcome his fear
lose or win is not the issue!
he didn't buy all those things and stick to NO! *oh boy*
...I pray quietly...
I put my trust in You, Lord!
not long after that...Torkis signaling me that he is IN! *Thank you, Jesus, !*
we then proceed to the audition room and over there they have to do some acting with the Producer himself. He is loud and twisted the script a bit and they need to act along with him
He is in the news for beyond-border acting here
The moment Calvin stepped in...i hold my breath...he did it!!!
HE OVERCAME HIS FEAR!!!
that's my boy!!!
so proud of him!!!
his eyes shine brightly and seem like he is happy that he did it!
The first round finished and they announced those who passed to the second round
Rebecca move on
Calvin didn't make it
Calvin head down shows that he was very disappointed *oh boy*
I thank God I have Torkis...He stick by Calvin's side and trying to address every issue due to the result
Torkis patiently and gently trying to lead Calvin out of his disappointment and see the good side
He is ok at the time but something is not settled
we didn't know...God planned on something
7 April 2017: Second Strike
Rebecca joined the Storytelling Competition at school on 3rd April and selected as the TOP 3
students from every level joined to competition and they paired up to do the storytelling while Rebecca chose to be a single-fighter
She beat all contestant even from upper primary and won the 1st prize *WoooHooo!*
Today, the TOP 3 presenting their story to the whole school
She is very confidence and presenting it very well!
She owned the stage! that's what her teacher told us
we are so proud of her!
Everyone praising her
Everyone shower her with praises
Everyone talks about her
at the other corner...
the girl sits next to him, turned to him and say this
"you are lousy! your sister better than you!"
Torkis and me aware of the situation that he had in him
but we chose to take time and hold back and let him learn to handle it
but actually, we are helpless!
we need to take time to pray too!
early days..we simply thought that it was only an audition and it turned out this way...
my heart is crushed for him
my mind shut down and I can't think of anything
the only thing I know is I'm helpless!
I cried out to God
I'm banging heaven's door
no aid delivered this time...
seems like God want me to learn to rest in Him
my anxiety makes me not aware that actually, God is working!
at night after the competition is badminton time! fun time!
it is a playing, running, screaming, joyful time for the kids
Saturday evening, we had another round of fun time at water park-Graden by the Bay
the kids had so much fun, more than the night before...they went straight to bed after we arrived at home
Sunday we spent the whole morning until early in the evening at church then we met Benny and his family for dinner
Fun seems doesn't want to stop with them
9 April 2017: God's Deliverance
We went back home exhausted for having fun time 3 days in a row
The kids did their homework then we gathered for praying time
Calvin completely forget about all his disappointment and humiliation until we prayed
Rebecca started her prayer with thanking Jesus for His mercy and grace on the Storytelling Competition
Calvin says a short thankful prayer
after prayer we made them sit down and talk
you've done a great job!
we are very proud of you!
you work hard for it and you deserved the 1st prize
you are great in the eye of people around
Calvin is great in the eye of the Lord
both of them shocked with the statement!
Calvin suddenly lift up his head and looked at us
Rebecca put a big question on her face
everyone talked about you
it takes only 1 week for people to forget about your achievement
Calvin did something that makes heaven singing
3 years back...
Calvin was bullied, kicking, punching, terrorized by a boy
the small little Calvin have to carry 2 lunch box every day to share with the boy
that lunch box not only contain food but love as well
Calvin share God's love to the boy who makes him suffer
He suffer but he never complain
He is willing to go through all the tough time for the boy understand about love
after 3 years
the boy and his family now attending church regularly
everyone in the school praising Rebecca
everyone acknowledge how good and confidence Rebecca is
nobody in the school knows about what Calvin have done
nobody praising him for what he has done
heaven rejoice and singing for a family come to know Christ!
The heavens declare the glory of God;the skies proclaim the work of his hands.
Day after day they pour forth speech;night after night they reveal knowledge.
They have no speech, they use no words;no sound is heard from them.
Yet their voice goes out into all the earth.their words to the ends of the world.
it's good to have an awesome achievement in this world
but to do eternity work far more important than that
do you still remember what is Jesus' food on John 4:34?!
Jesus' food is to do God's will
that kind of food satisfy your soul
this year we learn about the Gospel of John at BSF
if someone says you are lousy for this and that
you don't need to response to them
you need to tell yourself
I'm created in the mighty hands of my Jesus
I'm created to do His will
Calvin face changed
something shines brightly in his eyes
he changed in the way he sees himself
Rebecca changed as well
now she understand what is the important thing
to change them
to put understanding in them
...only God can do it!
...Praise Him for His wonderful work in our children's life
and as for us...
we were trying to encourage Calvin in many ways
but it seems that our efforts hit the wall
it doesn't move Calvin at all
when the truth is spoken
when the word of God is shared
The power of the Lord moved and changed his heart
Thank your dear Jesus! The True Living God!
You alone deserve the honor and glory and worship!
4 Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one. 5 Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. 6 These commandments that I give you today are to be on your hearts. 7 Impress them on your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up. 8 Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads. 9 Write them on the doorframes of your houses and on your gates.